i'm just soooo sick of waiting for my turn.

19 days.

it's sooo freakin' cold in oneonta right now.

anyone wanna cuddle?

This past week was amazing.


Only like 24 days til long island again!! <333

i waited. to the end of an eight hour sunday shift at waldbaums....

and now, i have a date tomorrow night.

a real one!

nervous and excited.

and yes. he's from camp <333

Wait for the boy who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kinda boy who brings out the best in you and makes you wanna be a better person. Wait for the boy who will be your best friend, who will drop everything to be with you at anytime no matter what the circumstances. Wait for the boy who makes you smile like no one else, and when he smiles, you know he needs you. wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no make-up on, but appreciates it when you get dolled up for him...and most of all, wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his universe, because that's where you belong ..*

Jessica found this quote and IMed it too me.

I am standing at the checkout waiting.....

i'm waiting til the end of an eight hour shirt at waldbaums for my overtime to kick in.



seriously. i cannot wait til long island. four days.

five days til i see the people that matter the most <3

boys should come with an instruction manual.
especially ones who work at brookhaven country day camp.

I have decided that all I need in life is a boy.
I have everything else planned.
I want to live in the cute little starter home next to Melissa and her cats on Summersweet Lane.
I will have the conditions for a tutor home on the LIFE board game "perfect for tupeople. with tucars with tutwo kids or more"
I will be a teacher and work at camp for the rest of my life.
It's not so easy now is it?

my friends are amazing. <333
miss you all.

and after almost 3 hours of crying, a shot of vodka, and a thin mint.
i think we are both getting better.
"playing favorites" just came on.

"i learned 3 things about life..it..goes..on"

thank you everyone for being so positive.

so i have been thinking...
summer needs to begin.now. i miss long island.
drama needs to stop. i'm not your property. stop. being. insecure.
i love oneonta hardcore but none of the above would be happening if i stayed in riverhead.
and i hate feeling so gulity for something i know i did that was right.
i just wanna be friends again and happy.
i wanna be happy.

i miss you. a lot.

soo. i log on to facebook and seee i have message!! yay! not so much. jessica tells me that jeff aka my senior prom date is joining the army and after basic training he will be deployed to iraq. i have not talked to him since he called the store over the summer and i was really a bitch because he called me at work. sure, he is immature and kinda crazy but i don't want anything happening to him. i feel bad i guess since i had been so rude to him since he faked being shot and it's weird having to tell relatives why you don't talk to your prom date. soo. good luck jeff.

i don't not when people use livejournal to vent about thier problems about people.



i miss long island.

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

This is my life as a movie soundtrack...(it is a little weird/funny)

Opening Credits: DAUGHTHERS by John Mayer

Waking Up: Cha-Cha Slide!!

First Day At School: More than a Feeling by Boston

Falling In Love: Clarity by John Mayer

Breaking Up: Kellerman's Athmen from "Dirty Dancing"

1st date: Over my Head by the Fray

Prom: What I Have been looking for from HS musicial

Life's OK: Dirty Little Secrect by All American Rejects

Driving: Love is Strange from Dirty Dancing

Flashback: I feel the Earth move by Carol King

Getting Back Together: Failure by Design by Brand New

Wedding: I want you to want me by Cheap Trick

Birth of Child: Don't ask me why by Billy Joel

Final Battle: Carry on Wayward Son by Kansas

Death Scene: Goodnight Saigon by Billy Joel

Funeral Song: Stay from Dirty Dancing

End Credits: Seventy times 7 by Brand New

For some reason a lot of songs I've never listened to came up, so that was interesting...haha.

10 things to 10 different people:

1. Could I be the someone special you are referring to on facebook?? Please. I hope I can make it out tonight. I miss you and our antics Freshman Year. My right elbow will always be yours.

2. Yes, I still have my "Why Run when you can Walk" tshirt. I wear it to bed all the time. The other day was awesome. I missed you and I love when I can see you shining face. You were one of the core reasons why I loved Riverhead. Friends until the Moon stops shining.

3. I love you. It is simple as that. 16 years. We made it through preschool and now we are in colleges. I miss you both. Sisters forever.

4. Your my favorite thing about waldbaums. You make my life complete giving me the dish about the 'baums. I love reading myspace/facebook/aim and your telling me more dramamarama. EX-sisters-in-laws!!

5. Your my ski. I am your trucker. We are insanity together. I will always remember our crazzy times. love ya skii.

6. Ohh. It has been way too long. I miss you terribly. Come to LONG ISLAND.

7. You made senior year half suck. Your a real bitch. I am forever done with you.

8. You always make me smile. Your hugs are awesome. I'm gonna miss you once you get a real job.

9. I cannot believe that you acted how you did. I am so glad that we don't talk anymore.

10. Child Support Please!! HAHA. You ruined my life.

Last night i dreamt that David Wright was the softball specialist at camp. then i was at waldbaums and i could not punch out so they made me stay there.

Barabra is leaving Riverhead tomorrow!!! Thank God!!! And I'm turning into a Waldbaums slave. Melissa....Barabra called me Melissa the other day. I have a new cell # 942-1423...we neeed a reunion!!

I know I don't really talk about it out in the open...i never really did...but today is another year....now it's 8. I miss her more and more as the years pass.


RIP mommy~ i love you!

today it rained in oneonta so myself and my lovely roomie...adriana...decided to make a fort~~it was soo fun!!!

yesterday was the first day of classes..woohoo!! and scott's bday party. 500 ballons in one of these rooms...crazyyyyy and i smelt like rubber for a long time!